Focus

It's sad the number of bloggers who make posts declaring "THIS IS IT". Sigh, I won't do  that now but I am ready to make serious progress. I dipped under 190 for a brief second but I'm back at my new "comfy" weight - 193-195.

I have a wedding in roughly 7 weeks and I want to weigh 175 (plus fit into my bm dress). I weighed 193.4 this morning so that means losing 18.4 lbs in 57 days. I started out at 196.4 on July 1st so I've lost 3lbs so far....

I'm going to call this 21.4 in 63 days.... Hmm maybe 22 in 2 (months) is catchier :) Will create a progress bar on the side to track.

I will post some pictures of the dress in a new post. The only good think is I am still in size 12s (although some of the smaller cut ones are a bit small).

So many of my friends are getting married and having babies... I want to be uber-sexy at least once before i get to that stage dammit!

Anyway, if anyone is still reading, I will try to be more frequent!

Embrace the Hunger

So these past few days have not been too good. I've let the stress of long hours working at a job I don't care that much for get to me and I stopped tracking and started eating even when I wasn't hungry.

Haven't stepped on the scale so don't know how bad the damage is but looking in the mirror I can see a difference. I can't keep saying I want something and then not put in the work. That's not how life works.

So much like my finances are on a tight leash, I have to put my weight on a tight leash. My twenties are on their last legs. I was blessed with a pretty good overall figure...so the least I could do is put in some effort  and keep it.

I bought a nice big planner and i have it posted on my wall (inspired from I used to be fat) and I'm just going to write weekly goals I can focus on. My brain thinks of a million things at once and I am going to try this week to be single minded (I wish I was one of those people that had tunnel vision). I was supposed to be 189 by Monday but I'm pretty sure that's a bust. So as long as I'm not up to 194/195 by Monday, 189 will be my goal for the next week.

All I'm saying is, I'm mentally preparing myself to embrace the hunger I know will come. No pain, no gain. I don't think actresses and athletes find training easy. I  read this one finance blog that was talking about how she saved money because she got used to a couple of things. It's hot in the summer... put on the ac? No. She just got used to sweating and then after a while, her body got used to it and she didn't get hot so easily.

Point is, I'm going to get used to being hungry....and then hopefully my body will get used to it to. Either way, I'm tired of trying to lose weight and I'm just going to do it.